From: owner-alloy-digest@smoe.org (alloy-digest) To: alloy-digest@smoe.org Subject: alloy-digest V4 #73 Reply-To: alloy@smoe.org Sender: owner-alloy-digest@smoe.org Errors-To: owner-alloy-digest@smoe.org Precedence: bulk X-To-Unsubscribe: Send mail to "alloy-digest-request@smoe.org" X-To-Unsubscribe: with "unsubscribe" as the body. alloy-digest Friday, March 5 1999 Volume 04 : Number 073 Today's Subjects: ----------------- Re: Alloy: Robin's steps [Debrah LaRue ] Re: Alloy: Cool music site ["Keith Stansell" ] Re: Alloy: Dear Dark Poet [Debrah LaRue ] ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Date: Thu, 04 Mar 1999 21:33:19 -0700 From: Debrah LaRue Subject: Re: Alloy: Robin's steps Hi all What a shock about the flaming email! It goes from being callous and immature and then can feel like emotional rape for the email victim. I sure hope Melissa comes back! What an outrage. Debrah > changes all of this has wrought. One of the new subscribers (I assume) had the > audacity to write privately to Melissa, anonymously no less, and insulted her > about her recent post to the point where she has, indeed, permanently > unsubscribed from Alloy. Because of this, and other posts she felt were overly > critical of Alloy & its regular contributors, she decided it was time to mov > > Write with any questions, everyone. Bye Lichaem. You owe Lissu a huge apology > for your truly unneccessary, spiteful and completely inappropriate rant. > > Robin T ------------------------------ Date: Thu, 4 Mar 1999 22:48:38 -0700 From: "Keith Stansell" Subject: Re: Alloy: Cool music site Close but no cigar.... You first need to go to Modern Rock. On that page there is supposed to be a Net Radio control bar under the banner ad (but I just went there and there was a ODBC error message instead). If I remember correctly, there is a drop down box with new wave as a selection. Another way to get there is to download the Real Player G2 for free http://www.real.com and click on Presets, alternative, netradio x.... The player's screen should show a control where you can select New Wave among the other choices. I hope you can access it. Right now, the only way I can get to it is through the Real G2 player. - -Keith - ----- Original Message ----- From: Guy Story, KC5GOI To: Sent: Thursday, March 04, 1999 8:37 PM Subject: Re: Alloy: Cool music site > > > > Keith, I found New Age but not New Wave. What did I miss? > > Guy > -----Original Message----- > From: Keith Stansell > To: alloy@smoe.org > Date: Thursday, March 04, 1999 9:08 PM > Subject: Alloy: Cool music site > > > > > >Hi everybody. > > > >http://www.netradio.net/ > > > >I stumbled across this site today (actually, it was pre-set in my Real > >Player G2) > >It's called net radio. It's an internet radio station which works in > >conjunction with an online CD store so you can buy what you hear. > > > >The modern rock channel has a New Wave sub channel that has really been > >bringing back some memories. I have a feeling most of you will like the > >station. Right now they are playing a mix of Situation by Yaz that I've > >never heard before. > > > >Also, I checked out the CD Point page that it connects to. They have the > >new XTC CD, and you can also buy an import of Aliens Ate My Buick at a > >reasonable price. Their server seems to be down at this moment, so try > >again later if you can't connect. > > > >Sorry if this sounds like an advertisement (I swear this is an unpaid > >endorsement) but I just thought you'd like to know. > > > >-Keith Stansell > > >> ------------------------------ Date: Thu, 04 Mar 1999 22:02:45 -0700 From: Debrah LaRue Subject: Re: Alloy: Dear Dark Poet dalexander@juno.com wrote: > > If you dare jump off our bridge, we will kill you, Twice Over! > We could never go back to that splendid bridge if you were to do such a thing! Jump off the Bay Bridge, but not the Golden Gate! > In all truthfulness, we do really care about you. Please reconsider > ponder over my other message. Time will always take care of you if you > keep your heart and your head straight into the future, not hanging in > the past. How sweet of you! I was joking (I think)...but yes I was pretty depressed and not really eating or sleeping much. NOW the good news...My ex-young man that I loved so dearly finally called last night to admit that he DOES LOVE ME, but...he will give me only one more chance! I completely understand his side so I better confess to you all the "whole Truth" about me. BIO time: I am an agoraphobia/panic disorder victim, since I was a teenager. Ryan is my first boyfriend in 4 years since a very rough divorce. He is also about 20 years younger than I am. I would only leave my house maybe one night a week over this past 10 months to go dancing with him. Every time he went to a concert or a party, or wherever, he was thinking "gee I wish Debrah could be here." BUT I always backed out of going places, made excuses. He is young and carefree and has every right to expect this from his girlfriend. So I just hope he is patient while I try to fight my way out of hell, it's very hard because they haven't really found a medication that helps me without severe side affects and when it's the wrong med it sends me into suicidal panic. The med works in reverse. I have too much to lose now so I'm going to have to tell my Dr. I can't live HALF a life anymore. It was ok before, I love my kids, have my poetry writing, studies, movies, music...but if I don't fight this very frightening illness with all my might, I will lose him again. I have teenagers who need me to stay alive and I also suffer from mild bi-polar disorder (Cyclothymia) I don't end up in mental wards or anything of that severity. In the creative world it is nicely called "artistic temperament." Shakespeare called it "spleen and Ideal." The normal world calls us "insane." I just want to feel what it's like to be normal...just once. I don't want to be neutered by meds and lose my creative edge, but what good is this "edge" if it kills you in the end? Well, I guess this my actual BIO now...all about Debrah... I am ultra-sensitive/ an empath so mixing in the real world is VERY hard. If I see a car accident, or a child slapped in a store, hear a racist remark in public, I start crying. I fainted at "Interview with the vampire" during the rat scene NO LIE, I passed out cold. It has always been this way...but I feel I do deserve to be loved, that I have a giving and kind nature, but he who chooses to love me, does not get a bed of roses. There are flaws even in diamonds. I have several poems in my latest book about exactly how it feels to live in a "CycloDrama."I am lucky that I am being given a second chance at love (and life?) You are great people, thank you for letting a "shut-in" into your world here! Debrah the "dark one" - -- "And when I fall asleep the objects in my house move slowly to my side and whisper secret names, the names they usually hide. And when I fall awake I try to write them down but real names are like sand they spill out of my hands." Neil Gaiman - Sandman http://www.darkpoet.com (CycloDrama- release date Spring 1999) ------------------------------ End of alloy-digest V4 #73 **************************