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| From | "Michael Carpenter" <stagefright@msn.com.au> |
| Subject | Re: hating life |
| Date | Thu, 17 May 2007 10:40:32 +1000 |
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Kerry wrote..
>
> But look at the cost, man. It seems like you're hating life
> (based on the posts I've read here).
Kerry.. I appreciate you taking it all on board and respect your opinion. I
think you're still over simplifying things dramatically, but that's just an
opinion and that's ok.
BUT... I will comment on the 'hating life' aspect of your post. If you'd
really read my posts, you would have understood what I'm really saying.
One thing I think you're completely missing, is that I don't hate my life.
In fact, I'm so close to the perfect life.. It's so tangible. I've live it
every day and have been for almost 10 years. And even now, one or two things
fall my way and I'm off the hook for another few months.. Or not. I don't
know whether you've ever achieved your biggest dream, but I have.. I wake up
in the morning next to the girl of my dreams with my child in the next room,
then go and produce records in MY OWN studio, surrounded by MY OWN
equipment, make my OWN records, get better at doing that, have people like
them, have respect and integrity, and on the weekend get to go and play
shows. I've toured around the world and lived the whole rock and roll dream.
And it's WONDERFUL. Better than I ever hoped it would be. And I want it to
go on forever.
I hate that because of the way things are going, (tying this up with the
original discussion points), with less money being made and smaller budgets,
I'm truly facing losing it all. That I hate. And I'm fighting it with
everything in my being and I HATE IT! And oversimplified posts like yours
just tend to poke into all the disappointment and sadness. Yeah.. I know...
I've had a good run and done what many could only hope to do.. And it's
"better to have tried and failed than never tried" etc. But damn it, I'm
talented and good at this and I still can't make it work. When you know what
that feels like, then I think you'll understand more.
I've built a life based on no compromises. I make self indulgent records
that nod to classic old records unapologetically... To me they're as artful
and progressive as I need them to be for me. I DO apologise for devaluing
your art.. It's not my place to do that. But the stuff you off handedly
dismiss as being derivative does mean a lot to the people that make it.
And if I lose it all, will I stop writing? I don't know.. Guess we'll wait
and see..
MC
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